NIKI - Oceans & Engines

[Verse 1]
Saturday sunset, we’re lying on my bed with five hours to go
Fingers entwined and so were our minds crying, “I don’t want you to go”
You wiped away tears but not fears under the still and clear indigo
You said, “Baby don’t cry, we’ll be fine, you’re the one thing I swear I can’t outgrow”

[Verse 2]
My mother said the younger me was a ‘Pretending’ prodigy well nothing, then, much has changed
Cause while you’re wolfing down liquor, my soul it gets sicker, but I’m stickin' to the screenplay, gotta say I’m okay,
but answer this babe:
How is it now that somehow you’re a stranger?
You were mine just yesterday
I pray the block in my airway dissipates and instead deters your airplane’s way

[Pre-Chorus 1]
But heaven denied
Destiny decried
Something beautiful died too soon

[Chorus]
But I’m letting go
I’m giving up the ghost
But don’t get me wrong,
I’ll always love you, that’s why I wrote you this very last song
I guess this is where we say goodbye
I know I’ll be alright
Someday I’ll be fine,
but just not tonight

[Verse 3]
Plunging into all kinds of diversions like blush wine and sonorous soirées
But even with gin and surgin’ adrenaline, I see you’re all that can intoxicate
Oceans and engines, you’re skilled at infringing on great love affairs
Cause now my heart’s home, all I’ve known, is long gone and ten thousand miles away

[Pre-Chorus 2]
And I’m not okay

[Chorus]
But I’m letting go
I’m giving up the ghost
But don’t get me wrong
I’ll always love you, that’s why I wrote you this very last song
I guess this is where we say goodbye
I know I’ll be alright
But just not -

[Bridge]
Tonight was the first time I stared into seas of beguiling sepia two years ago
And the first time I learned real world superpowers lived in three words, they revitalized my fraying bones, oh
Now what do you do when your pillar crumbled down, you’ve lost all solid ground, both dreams and demons drowned, and this void’s all you’ve found and doubts light it aglow?
I have so many questions
But I’m pouring them into the ocean and I’m starting up my engine

[Chorus]
And I’m letting go
I’m giving up your ghost
It’s come to a close
I marked the end with this last song I wrote
I’m letting go
This is the last falsetto
I’ll ever sing to you my great, lost love